I know they are not bad persons. That’s something you have to keep in mind, they didn’t treat you bad or make you feel bad on purpose. Often something is wrong with themselves and they take it out on others. They usually really care about you, this makes it so hard to leave. Because you feel, they love you but simultaneously it feels bad.
In this moment I was so mad at me. After a lot of conflicts with the person, I walked away for good. That was the best decision I made. Of course it wasn’t easy and I had a hard time to pass and I am still in processed but now I can say, I feel free again. I had not only the person let go but also the anger and all the bad feelings I had inside.
Nobody can help you doing that. A lot of your friends will want to give it a try, but for me it was really exhausting.
They tell you things like: “It’s better this way” or “you deserve someone better” or sometimes they give you clever sayings like: “When someone treats you like an option, help them narrow their choices by removing yourself from the equation.” – It’s that simple!
And you just think: “Wow thank you for you super good advice!” … (shut up and let me be down as long as I want to.) Just kidding. What I mean is, you have to go alone through this process because otherwise you will end up repeating this experience all over again.
I had to accept how I felt, how the things went and the decisions I made. Even if afterwards I thought “how stupid could I be”. I needed an experience like that and a person like that to learn that I am stronger than I thought. I learned that I don’t need another person to receive love. That I have enough inside of me and this love is to precious to give it to the wrong persons.