I guess I was lost for a long time and I didn’t even recognize it.
Do you know this feeling when you feel empty, powerless and incredibly tired… but at night you can’t fall asleep? And at the same time there are moments you feel high on life and everything is super cool and in seconds your emotional state changes again and you feel like: What the hell is going on with me?
I know this feeling. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I thought I had to do something to fix me, to fix the situation. I had to focus on good. I had to be happy. I had to be positive. And this made me feel more badly and more lost. I didn’t know what to do. And the last thing I had on my mind was to break up with a very important person to me. It was like a spiral going downstairs, until destiny gave me a reason why to break up. But I knew it for so long. I think most of you know exactly what I mean, you know this person is not good for you, you feel it, but you can’t separate from them, especially when you love this person. And you hang on and you won’t give up…
You feel like a betrayer because you leave. You fell guilty. But guess what? You are not. That’s what I had to learn. It made me reflect a lot. People come into your life for a reason but not everyone is meant to stay. And People you love, even family members, could have a bad influence for your mental health. Unfortunately.
After my pullback I thought about what I learned and I want to share it with you to give you the strength you need for you own process.
First of all, realize you have to do nothing. Especially you don’t have to suppress bad emotions ’cause they aren’t bad… They want to teach you something. And recognize the behavior of persons how it is. Realize that their behavior is not OK and don’t pretend it is. Just because it’s easier to give in than it is to fight it, doesn’t mean it’s good for you. The situation won’t change. People only change if they want to and not because you want it. So you have to decide not to be influenced by their behavior, and distance oneself from them. The only behavior you can influence is yours. Stop giving into them. It’s useless and wasted energy. You only have constantly contact with negativity and drama at the cost of your own inner peace.
..next post will coming soon.
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